I am thinking.....

I have been thinking a lot lately. Thinking too much it's driving me nuts. No, it's not some problem with the in-laws or anything like that. Fact is, I can't be bothered with them anymore, I just let it be. I know somethings bothering me, but I can't just figure out what. Peace of mind is a commodity which I lack right now. I honestly don't know what is bothering me.

Anyway, the supposedly long weekend flashed by so quickly, I didn't know it was there. Well, Friday was full of nothingness, just stayed home, doing a bit of spring cleaning, played my new game - The Battle for Middle Earth. Went to visit my FIL at his work place. He's a security guard in Tuas, working the night shift and thru the weekends that wifey and me never get a chance to see him unless we go there. Then, we went to a BBQ at East Coast, organised by some friends. Sunday, went for our usual classes in the morning followed by going to 2 friends house who were having a cukur rambut ceremony for the newborns. For the uninitiated, that means, literally, hair shaving ceremony.

Something happened over the weekend which really ruffled me up. I was having a good time at the BBQ. I'm the kind of person who loves to work the grill. I'm at the grill at almost every BBQ I go to. In fairness, my wife did warn me against leaving her by herself, knowing how I'd get so engrossed from working the grill. Suffice to say, I heeded the warning only initially. Hey, I was enjoying myself. So, she left and waited in the car at the car park. While I thought she was socialising with the gals, she conveniently left the BBQ and sat in the car, reading the newspapers. I understood why she did that, and honestly, I felt terrible.

Now, most people would say, Why on earth did u leave ur wife by herself, knowing she's not the most sociable person around?. Yeah, I admit it was foolish of me to think a leopard could change it's spots. And it becomes my fault for wanting to get my wife to learn to be more sociable. Well, she left the party and stayed in the car, without telling me. Next thing I knew she wasn't there and saw an SMS from her that she's in the car. An SMS! I only saw that SMS 30mins after it was sent, meaning that she's been there for that long.

You'd think I'd have no right to be pissed. Consider this though, if something were to happen to a wife while she was out with the husband, who'd be responsible then? I don't have a problem if she can't get along and she wants to leave, what I had a problem with was for her to leave without telling me first.